I just returned home from my Uncle's funeral yesterday. This was my fourth funeral for a family member in less than a year. And there is one more to attend. I am sad...

To lose five family members in so short a time is quite hard, and at times unbelievable. I haven't been able to fully grieve for anyone. I sit here wondering how to put into words what I am feeling. Goose seems to be handling it just fine. We talk about everyone, we have made cards for family members. Binky is another story. Just the other day he suddenly became very angry that his Great-Grandfather passed away. He was angry that he was taken from him. I was taken by surprise by this a little. But I know he is a sensitive soul and that he would be the one to have a harder time dealing with all of this death. We talked about Grandpa and how wonderful he was. We hugged a lot! At Grandpa's funeral, Binky really bonded with my Uncle. As did our whole family. So to tell Binky that Uncle died suddenly was hard. He was quiet for a moment and then moved on with what he was doing. I wonder if hearing that someone has died has become... normal to Goose and Binky, that it is a part of their everyday reality. Today we are going to honor our family members with candles and words and art and hugs, and, of course, tears. I am looking forward to Spring and new beginnings... to life.